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Micro-Blogging My Gotu-kola Diaries pt.3

“A line of pretence The purchasable of power for control as though health has no part in any economy whilst blatantly used as year’s of strategy, stress, distress, and even forms of mind control, if even possible. Creating a financial system where by just enough is given for you to eat as though you have no other bills, or essential needs. Whilst abuses are left to linger as the damages caused create delays, and almost impossible ways to surmount the burden so as not to be a burden. Sat an agreed, as though if to live healthy, is also a form of greed!” “Lavinia, what on earth are you garbling on about? Are you rehearsing old girl....hmmm?” “Mmmmm...oh yeah...where on earth am I?” “Come on...back....lets do a micro blog about your journey with Gotu-kola ...now in how many different forms did you take the herb, and what was the difference?” “Ah....yes...Well now there’s a thing, I first purchased powder and made up capsules, the decided up buying a big bag of several branches of the dri...
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MY GOTU-KOLA INTERVIEW DIARY pt.2

I was glad of a punnet of firm Strawberries 🍓 and some dark chocolate 🍫 embedded with hazelnuts. “So, what’s new with you on this journey of GOTU-KOLA...did the dizziness happen again?” “Yes!” “Really?” “Yes!” “How so...how many capsules did you take this time?” “One” “What, only the one? How come you still got dizzy? Describe the dizziness?” “ I just thought i’d top up. I struggle with motivation at times, even when motivated...by that i mean i have struggled with having enough energy” “OK....so when did you get dizzy straight after popping the capsule?’ “No, I don’t think so maybe about 12 to 24 hours after” “ OK, and that felt like what exactly...describe the onset?” “I sleep low down not on a bed but on the floor. I noticed it whilst trying to get up from the floor once my head down, or again if I am lying down moving from side to side.” “How did you steady or ground yourself?” “That is why I wanted to get back on here for another session. Because I was so fascinated by what I di...
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MY GOTU KOLA EXPERIENCE AND MY DIARY INTERVIEW BLOG

  “BELIEVE IT OR NOT THE FOLLOWING CONVERSATION KEPT COMING TO ME: YOU ONLY NEED TO BE GIVEN BIRTH TO FOR YOUR BRAIN TO BE AFFECTED? Something kept saying REALLY? Said I ISN’T THE BRAIN STILL IN FORMATION AFTER BIRTH?  I answered in an attempt to try and reason with myself WHY ON EARTH WOULD MY OWN BRAIN COME UP WITH THAT? I finally asked myself” “Because your Brain, Lavinia maybe trying to tell you something? Maybe your brain is directing your attention to ask you…what your brain was formed with? Or around?” Lavinia Dry and Crusty Old and Dry Brown and Rustic Green but not Bright  Long Branches and Tiny Leaves Create a Thicket  Dried Gotu Kola For whose relief? The Gotu-Kola Herb has been referred as the Brain Herb which has been known to have a positive effect on Alzheimer’s, and Fatigue to name but a few benefits! So, what happened between you and Gotu-kola Lavinia? “Was taking my daily supplements had made up a jar of the herb in powder f...
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I WANT TO BECOME A BETTER MOTHER!

  THERAPY IS THE PROCESS: I WANT TO BECOME A BETTER MOTHER BLOG 03/01/2023  Ok, so I am ready to go visual and do less audio? No!  I think I need to keep doing even more audio, and also do about the same amount and probably more visuals film, and video type stuff. But, before I get into that…because I am still not quite ready, I thought let me lay down more back ground it may make easier for me to understand where I need to go as I heal if I can just come clean about my darkest parental demons, as it were!  With all due respect I acknowledge I am by no means talking about worse case scenario at all, we are very blessed. Question, why does anyone ever get to that stage at all? Dear God  Where do I start I have so many?  Having damaged my babies brain during an accident where I did not realise I had not had a good grip of her, she slips through my hands and on to the floor. To say I was and have been terrified ever since is an understatement. Those fairground...
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THERAPY IS THE PROCESS: BECOMING A BETTER PARENT

  IF I DON'T WRITE THIS NOW I FEEL LIKE I NEVER WILL... ...thankfully that is not true. Now whilst this might not come out the right way, I think that is possibly a good thing because then the truth of it, about it, and within it will not be hidden. It is now the 02/01/2023/02:07am I have been just drawn to documentaries about...I feel to say human treatment. 1st Nation Abuses from around the Globe. In search of the compatibility and comparability of how the almost or exact behaviours have been played out when dealing with similar or the exact same behaviours single down into individuality! But, as I did that a mildish form of personal guilt hit. Here, I was just the other day waxing lyrical about how the most beautiful thing I ever heard was hearing that my brain is what creates my mind. Only meant in the context of my self-healing from abuse not per se because I am a Mother...and nothing is more beautiful than hearing your own child say I love you which is such an intrinsic part ...
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Accepting Your Own 🧠 Brain

So, what do you do when someone suffers from a need, thought or belief to spread around that they have won every competition against you that you never knew existed? Staying Level  And what do you do if this is someone who suffers from a very troubled and abused past which has left them a very deluded and possibly as a result avery stealthy person with an act or intentions that leaves nobody realising that is someone whose abuse has made them into an unseen or detected attacker? It has been a couple of days now since I had one of my best brain healthy days.  Have you ever studied something absorbed your lessons but once your studies are over, and the pressure is off. You feel you can relax. All you have to do is adapt what you have been taught appropriately until it is second nature almost that is what it feels like needs to happen. In 2015, I wrote my first free flow poetry book. Which means I just sat down and wrote what came to me in that very moment. What ever images, loca...
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I do not know how to capture or really truly express this

  I do not know how to capture or really truly express this She or He They  Or all with what they say Caught somewhere between love Mystery Hate and Fate I’ll say it again As it comes to me as a refrain Been writing so long It seems like the themes don’t change There is a place They seem captured Here hearing has become like autumn Getting ready for winter Of course given this is my work There is an observance of obsession I made no promise that I can remember I attended for mandatory purposes only Forgave and moved on Stuck in the mind As though behind a blurry glass I cannot lie I caught a glimpse But never know if I ever align anything right Seems to be a burden She bends to the ground She became stuck on gadgets And interjecting peace With alarming sounds Sickness Genuine sickness can seem so cruel If dare written about as foolish Sometimes it is a fate too great One makes the mistake Cannot get out Of what they were left to believe I w...
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