MELT DOWN WEEK!

Well, I have to admit I almost don’t know where to start.
Start with the most challenged by everything and everyone and then build the most transparent easy to use automated system around them that will help them negotiate every challenge efficiently in a self sufficient way. Allowing them to maintain dignity, self respect, and independence at all times.
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Trying to make it back from meltdown week
From 27/07/2022 to 12/08/2022
I grazed past a mistake I had made without seeing between the time frame mentioned. I couldn’t believe myself!
It was a challenge for me, and I already know through each challenge I need to push a little harder. But suppose you just don’t see it? Suppose you just cannot see what is right in front your eyes for a period of time  not for want of trying either.
I thought it was all over until a moment ago, and thanks be to God the answer were right before my despondent head!

But it still happened again. 
They all say don't they if you want to something just get started.
Well, suppose you do...get started and nought comes of it, whatever it is?
It’s amazing how long it can take your brain to cog on. Maybe funny to some who need to learn a thing or two about being helpful...but is that really what that is. In this day and age of much demand people with diverse capacities, and capabilities, are now able to work behind many automated systems.
The music distribution has thankfully changed, and I think is great, and most of all for the greater good. In a week when I thought it was all over for me continuation is not just about the freedom but correction there of...where I had no confidence to go...the mare threat of restriction made me wonder if I could be more open to thinking of myself much more capable of achieving much more.
She says as she scratches her damage shoulder which is covered in painkiller rub then forgets, and scratches her eye.
As melt down week unfolded my head went back to 2002 when I was threatened by a company when a combination lack of experience and a type of environment saw me make a sudden exist. All of sudden everything seemed combined. Years of every situation imaginable contrived because one person cannot let go.
It the 15th of August 2022 uts been a baking summer real scratcher! No dusty dusky nights driving toward the mountains, things have moved on ever so slightly. Never the way if the way of best laid plans.
The trains screech away 
One handed I manage to keep getting things rearranged
No...no ask somebody not the same for everybody!
I see the little afro by the wall
Bouncing a ball looking toward my home
Thank God, I’m focused on finally being able to use a form of spiritual practice to connect me to a path I have long wanted, and thankfully been able to work towards.
It is a practice which does not initially hold efficiency, or instant monetary reward. Not the way I feel at first. But it is a practice of connection which eventually if you know like you believe will deliver every kind of allowance!
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Natural Flowism 
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A Freedom of Being!
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#laviniadeayr 

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