A Conversation about experiences behind Learning how to Write a One Page Miracle!
How have you been, Lavinia?
Still putting veganmayo on Chicken Breast, and Vegan Block Butter Naturali'on everything else like Bulgar Wheat and Salmon with Greens and Seasoning herbs like: Curries, Coriander powdered Spices, all of which I absolutely love. You know when it feels like every mouthful of food literally prays for you as you eat it...I am so thankful and gratefully blessed to be able to have and share that experience.
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Ok...but are you ok?
The only way i can answer that truthfully right now is...
I woke up on the banks...hillside pyramids of what looked like the Serengeti
I rolled onto my right side to see a she lion beside me paw bent and in the air as she partially lay in her back
Then i realised I was in danger because lions kill humans then the scene shifts and the fear of hurt was no longer the same!
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I am then in a new scene in the midst of an East End of London abode
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A whitish man in this dream I am having smiles at me with the exact same smile i created in the painting of a black lady
Which I have not finished blending
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In this abode is bright burgundy skirting boards
An upper deck where whitish women are wear gold
The house is crowded but everyone is in their own partion there are pinky floral walls which match the darkes shade of pink burgundy....and I am so gratefully awake!
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So...how is that going to relate...or how are you going to translate that into your one page miracle?
My response now is....because I started this blog before and remembered to immediatedly save to draft...today more is going on than when I started the draft...so my context is...i am dealing with somwthung today which has hurt me so many times before...
Abuse?
Yes...so I wrote: I want to stop feeling this abused by the same thing over and over again.
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Ok...I understand its hard for you...
It is hard for all people who come from abuse
Especially when what?
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My head is hurtung due to several things
Reàlisations are hard when they got past your first instincts because they were so battered
Forced to live in a swindle time and time again
People freely i dont even know what for professionalism, and I am not one who really likes to call out racism because often that us not all there is, but though this is real there is no need for this
Maybe I just need to keep saying...it...not after rape as kid.
It is beyond tough for all around
All of us who have been through literally had to come through the damaged body that is
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In this day and age
In this way I can only touch on the journey from the perspective I am
But for all of healing and sharing our healing publicily
It is not easy and it is not always showbiz either
Feels like people begin strategising around you when you are just being you
Not planning but what you do starts looming like a move
When you start public sharing like it or not things get inspiring. You try and hope to keep it good...difficult when not everything be it truth or facts can be understood
But again as a sharer because of what or who wanted to hide and not be truth they begin bargaining about what to or not tell you.
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I now have alot of what I want...and want to heal to workout in my one page miracles.
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When you were filling out the One Page Miracle area of your assessment for your final exam...what did you write?
Nothing was clearly defined in my mind. I will share as I write this I am currently at home on bed rest...having begun a course of steriod treatment for low showing nasal polyps. I'm in some pain. I have previously had operations...it had been explained to me that the polyps where in my head area when I asked if that would affect my brain in anyway...do not remember that being yes though the operation would be delicate, i would have to go for an MRI scan previous to surgery once I learn about brain imaging I would always ask if that was available. Had previously discharged myself from hospiral against advice...
...due to being stalked?
Yes!
...so...where are we now with the one page miracle?
My mind has felt like it has been swilling and swirling decisions had been difficult...exhaustion has been beyond....though it maybe too soon to tell I seem to be responding well
Do you feel like your function has been pressured?
Something! I did not want to be operated on again. I was busy working and at the time I was managing, and hope I will again.
Do you think it has affected anything to do with your driving?
Are you referring to the assault and abuse I experience?
Yes!
I don't know if to say...one of the good things about being abused over a sustained period is comparison. I had polyps present so bad. My face had gone numb...the polyps had broken and fallen down my face in full view without me feeling it..still wasn't falling asleep driving!
Something has been practiced!
Something is acute somewhere!
It is hard
It is difficult
It is a form of domestic abuses despite happening in professional circumstances
It is has left me facing decisions I cannot avoid
I am hoping and praying with the help and use of the One page Miracle I will find the strength to confront my truth...face it even if things are worse or better than I thought!
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You sound determined...haven't you already started healing through One Page Miracle..in your book...Fanaticism Talked About ?
Yes...that is still a book in progress
And you are writing in conjunction with a flotilla of support books you call it.. managing to only concentrate on Love and I here congratualtions are in order you have got started by opening one of your new shops?
Yes...you can now shop here: House of Flowism
I am so Grateful for the change and for all the One Page Miracle work that went on behind getting past everything to get started on the shop!
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Thank You for joining me for another Self - Healing Blog Session. If want to learn more about the self healing work of the One Page Miracle please click all the links below:
https://www.amenclinics.com/blog/the-one-question-that-will-change-your-life/
https://tanaamen.com/one-page-miracle/
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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