From Hackney Downs to Holloway - Lavinia's Brain Commutes
From Hackney Downs/ Dalston to Holloway(as predicted?)
Film Overview Blog
Filming begins in Hackney Downs, East London www.centreforceradio.com can be heard in the background
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Amid sniffles and guffles with my crispy looking hands needing a cuticle trim and much more like needing to spend copious amounting of hours exercising, and Spinning. I use an under wheel camera angle to film myself Monologuing on the way to work.
It is the twenty first of March twenty, twenty two after putting it off for so long I decide that prior to getting to my planned content I thought I’d do some free flow therapy observation sessions trying to committ to... if not a daily film diary at least weekly or monthly one.
Personal Coarse Work Discovered
I am keen to observe how I am functioning? Am I following through on my sentences? When and where am I correcting myself, if at all? Punctuation? Grammar?
Subject Matters That Emerge in Monologue
As I turn out of a parking space near my home I catch sight of a couple, and a woman in the road check a black purse which to me has connotations to years of being stalked. Monologue begins as I describe having problems with road users in the area of Warwickshire area of the M40 whilst working night after night a black Mercedes convertible appears year after year flashing their lights directly at me, similar car appears on the street driven by girl with black purse. Stalkers might often claim pride once their incessant, obsessive behaviours accurately predict which may also prove they have stalked you for so long all they can do is predict! I remain concerned as such a minor incident or coincidence takes my memory reeling back to the 1990’s when I attended Chelsea Community College to study Fashion Sketching. Trouble in the area of Warwickshire may relate the end of a term of employment in 2005 prior to and leading up to the August of that year.
For a number of years every time I take this journey if I am not continually and forcibly dazzled by the lights of certain road users at one time at least one of the drivers has looked like the person who originally stalked me. I have found a certain amount of bicycle riders and bikers it would appear seem to be trying to behave unnecessarily odd, rude, or offensive. As I drive by some of these road users lean back off their vehicle with head turned toward the car, I also found some cyclist behaving as though they are checking the roof of my car? It maybe that the lean back off their bike rider s maybe mimicking military performances. I dare to make the comment due to experience that if you so much as mention such celebrity the obsessiveness around it creates more nightmares which I have absolutely no patience or time for.
In general the experience of being stalked remains troubling even more so with a background of incest rape.
Female stalking female can be equally as damaging as male stalking female, or family member stalking family. Stalking parties deliberately and shamelessly defying law, personal boundaries, common courtesy.
The sicker a stalker gets the more cruel and evil or subtle a stalkers antics can become.
Tactics and antics of someone suffering from behaving or reacting as a stalker can range from anything to creating double gangers to look like the people that once were in the life of the person they are targeting, or to look like the people a victim of a stalker may not have meet yet, to recreating scenes of abuse a survivor of a stalker once went through. This can continue into morphing all enemies to make it difficult for the targeted to seek, or interact with any justice, or to make escape difficult. Ganging up on a target - can be part of a stalkers antics, and cowardliness. Excessively playing down, or not recognising the effect stalking behaviour is having on those around them, or on themselves, or those who they are targeting, and others who survive them. This is often a big part of the evil which can be continually caused by behaviours of a stalker as in very subtle ways in almost invisible ways. Which can keep a stalker in a non obvious way out of touch with normal everyday moment to moment reality.
Normal reality Where none includes timing themselves to pace up and down near where a particular person lives, or deliberately moving to where a person lives, or organising a drive by. A reality which does not need to include organising hurting someone mostly in a visual psychologically way as part of their daily routine!
The effects of a stalkers is enormous, and not just in private because probably most stalkers are high functioning hard working people which means the impact of the behaviours and all their causes is not just about domestic abuses, the effects impact and costs industries and humanity as a whole!
Therapy continues to be the process!
I was attracted to the Works of Dr Amen because he wrote about treating stalkers in his book Change your brain Change your life https://www.amazon.co.uk/Change-Your-Brain-Life-obsessiveness/dp/0749941960
Little did I know I would end up studying Brain Health to help myself heal by becoming a Brain Health Professional at: https://www.amenuniversity.com
You can find out much more about Brain Health, and the work of Dr Amen and his wife Trauma Nurse Tana Amen at:
https://tanaamen.com/
https://brainhealthassessment.com/assessment
https://www.amenclinics.com
Buy Brain Health Supplements at:
https://www.brainmd.com
I recently found the work of Dr Caroline Leaf through
Brain Warriors Way Podcasts
https://brainwarriorswaypodcast.com/
5 Ways to Managing a Messy Mind. Brain Warriors Way Podcast with Dr. Caroline Leaf
https://youtu.be/03St_1EgR4I
I am so Thankful and Grateful to learn so much. For Dr Caroline Leaf website and app click link below
https://drleaf.com/collections/all
Dr Caroline Leafs Podcasts below
Trauma Bonding Podcast:354 (click link for full details)
https://youtu.be/qwBkF0sU12M
Intrusive Thoughts Podcast:366 (click link for full details)
https://youtu.be/8JoHKAfueHs
Thank you for Watching and Reading
Click link below to my website plenty freebies
https://www.naturalflowism.com
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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From Hackney Downs/ Dalston to Holloway(as predicted?)
Film Overview Blog
Filming begins in Hackney Downs, East London
^
Amid sniffles and guffles with my crispy looking hands needing a cuticle trim and much more like needing to spend copious amounting of hours exercising, and Spinning. I use an under wheel camera angle to film myself Monologuing on the way to work.
It is the twenty first of March twenty, twenty two after putting it off for so long I decide that prior to getting to my planned content I thought I’d do some free flow therapy observation sessions trying to committ to... if not a daily film diary at least weekly or monthly one.
Personal Coarse Work Discovered
I am keen to observe how I am functioning? Am I following through on my sentences? When and where am I correcting myself, if at all? Punctuation? Grammar?
Subject Matters That Emerge in Monologue
As I turn out of a parking space near my home I catch sight of a couple, and a woman in the road check a black purse which to me has connotations to years of being stalked. Monologue begins as I describe having problems with road users in the area of Warwickshire area of the M40 whilst working night after night a black Mercedes convertible appears year after year flashing their lights directly at me, similar car appears on the street driven by girl with black purse. Stalkers might often claim pride once their incessant, obsessive behaviours accurately predict which may also prove they have stalked you for so long all they can do is predict! I remain concerned as such a minor incident or coincidence takes my memory reeling back to the 1990’s when I attended Chelsea Community College to study Fashion Sketching. Trouble in the area of Warwickshire may relate the end of a term of employment in 2005 prior to and leading up to the August of that year.
For a number of years every time I take this journey if I am not continually and forcibly dazzled by the lights of certain road users at one time at least one of the drivers has looked like the person who originally stalked me. I have found a certain amount of bicycle riders and bikers it would appear seem to be trying to behave unnecessarily odd, rude, or offensive. As I drive by some of these road users lean back off their vehicle with head turned toward the car, I also found some cyclist behaving as though they are checking the roof of my car? It maybe that the lean back off their bike rider s maybe mimicking military performances. I dare to make the comment due to experience that if you so much as mention such celebrity the obsessiveness around it creates more nightmares which I have absolutely no patience or time for.
In general the experience of being stalked remains troubling even more so with a background of incest rape.
Female stalking female can be equally as damaging as male stalking female, or family member stalking family. Stalking parties deliberately and shamelessly defying law, personal boundaries, common courtesy.
The sicker a stalker gets the more cruel and evil or subtle a stalkers antics can become.
Tactics and antics of someone suffering from behaving or reacting as a stalker can range from anything to creating double gangers to look like the people that once were in the life of the person they are targeting, or to look like the people a victim of a stalker may not have meet yet, to recreating scenes of abuse a survivor of a stalker once went through. This can continue into morphing all enemies to make it difficult for the targeted to seek, or interact with any justice, or to make escape difficult. Ganging up on a target - can be part of a stalkers antics, and cowardliness. Excessively playing down, or not recognising the effect stalking behaviour is having on those around them, or on themselves, or those who they are targeting, and others who survive them. This is often a big part of the evil which can be continually caused by behaviours of a stalker as in very subtle ways in almost invisible ways. Which can keep a stalker in a non obvious way out of touch with normal everyday moment to moment reality.
Normal reality Where none includes timing themselves to pace up and down near where a particular person lives, or deliberately moving to where a person lives, or organising a drive by. A reality which does not need to include organising hurting someone mostly in a visual psychologically way as part of their daily routine!
The effects of a stalkers is enormous, and not just in private because probably most stalkers are high functioning hard working people which means the impact of the behaviours and all their causes is not just about domestic abuses, the effects impact and costs industries and humanity as a whole!
Therapy continues to be the process!
I was attracted to the Works of Dr Amen because he wrote about treating stalkers in his book Change Your Brain Change Yoir Life Book
Little did I know years later I would end up studying Brain Health to help myself heal by becoming a Brain Health Professional myself at: Amen University
You can find out much more about Brain Health, and the work of Dr Amen and his wife Trauma Nurse Tana Amen at:
Buy Brain Health Supplements at:
I recently found the work of Dr Caroline Leaf through
Brain Warriors Way Podcasts
5 Ways to Managing a Messy Mind. Brain Warriors Way Podcast with Dr. Caroline Leaf
I am so Thankful and Grateful to learn so much. For Dr Caroline Leaf website and app click link below
https://drleaf.com/collections/all
Dr Caroline Leafs Podcasts below
Trauma Bonding Podcast:354 (click link for full details)
https://youtu.be/qwBkF0sU12M
Intrusive Thoughts Podcast:366 (click link for full details)
https://youtu.be/8JoHKAfueHs
Thank you for Watching and Reading
Click link below to my website plenty freebies
https://www.naturalflowism.com
^
Natural Flowism
^
A Freedom of Being!
^
On my return journey I got to Highbury corner waiting to enter the junction for Essexs Road. All I felt again but with much more awareness was a weight of energy with an overwhelming need to sleep. It felt like a heavy weight. I managed to remain claim, and most of all not fall asleep, the energy appeared to fall forward, but it could have been pulled back? For so many years without realising how or why I lived in a stuppa of exhaustion especially at home. Where I want the most energy. At home since 2006 I have experienced domestic abuses in the form of being tracked around my home which can mean noise been made above my head, or below my feet where ever I go in my flat due occupation of property below or above where I live!
The shift was again rough all I saw was a couple of black hatch back audi...one of which was at the bottom of the street near where I live just this week, and again I am battling with what feels like to stay awake!
For some reason as I began wondering how far some people will go to do a background check on you despite social media and website visibility? Prior to needing to do an extensive background check on someone what consideration is given to how it will affect the person being checked out, and will it leave them feeling stalked? Being predicted has been a huge part of being attacked by a stalker for me, maybe due to the types of attacks I have experienced I remain puzzled and confused as to how stalkers manage to go on proving that they are not stalking?
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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